University->Community College, Happy Life
Wow, I always freakin forget to update my blog. But Oh do I have some news for you! After alot of really long thinking I’ve decided to do what’s in the best interest for myself and not what my family wants me to do! I’ve been spending all this money, that I don’t have (student loans), on courses at UNT when I can very easily just take these classes at a community college. Basically, before I begin rambling, point is, I decided to withdraw from my University and attend community colleges so I can get my basics done ASAP. I can work while enrolled, live at home, and safe so much more money! I don’t know why advisors don’t push you or tell you this stuff ahead of time instead of wasting half my life (a semester in college), figuring it out yourself! This isn’t quits for the University world, It’s just I think I’m way better off getting my stuff together! I’m miss my little brother too much to be away from home for so long being around a bunch of idiot kids who wanna drink and do drugs anways. I’m too good for that. I’m ready to really trust myself, to take care of myself and stop doing what LOOKS best for me!
I don’t wanna change the subject but just as a little reminder to myself, I’ve been doing wonderful lately, I don’t know if i’ve gone clueless but for probably about 3 months now I haven’t had a serious bad day is so long :) I have to applaud myself and probably just say it has something to do with growing up and loving myself wholesomely… Oh I do must have to admit, my father has some kind of curse on me, out of all the things that happen to me, he can say one little thing that makes me feel like my world is collapsing. Today I called him to talk to my little brother and all he could say in response was a loud “I DONT FUCKING FEEL LIKE MOVING RIGHT NOW” something along those lines. It really got to me but instead of getting my feelings hurt, I had to let him know my perspective on all the times I’ve told him he’s an angry person. I sent him a text (after hanging up on him) saying, “dad you didn’t have to yell when all i simply did was ask you a question” There really was no reason for him to be so angry to a daughter he especially never talks to.
Moving back home will be hard work. But as long as stay on track and remind myself of the future i’m looking forward to, I’ll stand strong.
